Showing posts with label Private. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Private. Show all posts

Tuesday, 25 August 2020

Lost Moments

 Since it’s invention, photography, like any other form of art, sculpture, even architecture, express, explore and question ideas about relationships to a place or time that has significance to us.

There are many ways of depicting such relationships in a photography- from a single shot that can stand on its own yet suggesting a narrative that extends beyond the frame to a sequence of photographs that suggests a deeper psychological narrative.

Inspired by the topic “Constructing Narratives and Challenging Histories”, I would like to show an example of a narrative that I am working on currently, based on pictures, taken by myself back in 2015.

Having been living abroad for 20 years, I still cope with the feeling of guilt because of leaving my country, the feeling of missing my family and the feeling of detachment from my background and the feeling of lost moments. To overcome these feelings and accept them, I started to photograph all what was around me, when visiting Ukraine.

One of the photographs is a self portrait and suggests my inner state, a feeling, where I am facing the origin of my identity and reflecting upon the importance of the connection to own community and roots.

The second one is a representation of the community, a place and time to which I am seeking to connect. It’s an amusement park, to which I often came with my family. as a kid. That image is a representation of my childhood, my past, yet, it’s a timeless moment, to which we always want to come back.

By putting together these two images, I seek to construct a narrative, through which I explore and come closer to the distant surroundings and distant time, which sometimes, I feel lost for me because I am not there any longer physically.

I have taken the photographs back in 2015, but I back then I didn't have a clear understanding of meaning of these images. Not until I have taken the course in Seeing Through Photographs.

Only after learning how we understand the depth of our lives through the lens of photography, I know, these images are not only about the final pictures. I use the camera to create a connection to a place, which has significance to me.


Wednesday, 2 July 2014

The New Path for Ukraine


Today (27.06.2014) Ukraine has signed the Association Agreement and the Final Act with the EU. In his speech before the signature, the President noted: "It is a symbol of fate and unbreakable will. It is a tribute to people who gave their lives and health to make this moment happen. And it is the strongest reminder that today's Europe is and must be about people's determination to live in a better and fairer world".

But my post is not about the Agreement, its economic benefits, neither it’s about the mess caused after Janukovitch ditched the agreement and fled the country. My post is about people and some significant changes in Ukraine, which are worth celebrating. The change, which finally comes from people’s hearts. It’s also about the path, Ukrainians have chosen if they are to unite Ukraine.

By Olena Denysyuk

When I was going to travel to Ukraine last month, my colleague seemed worried and asked me not to demonstrate naked in the streets, and not to shout out – “Putin hands off Ukraine”.  In their eyes they were right, when thinking that it was going to be an extreme vacation, having in mind the recent political and separatist movements in Ukraine.  

On top of that, I missed my flight. Should I have taken this, as a sign from  the top that I was meant to stay home? All worst case scenarios taken into consideration, the worst thing that might happen, could be that the airport was shut down. There were no worries, nor fears and 5 days later than planned I started to make my way to Ukraine, bearing in mind the jungle of news that have been broadcasted directly into my brain during the last couple of months.

I arrived safely, not demonstrating naked or shouting loudly “Putin off Ukraine”. Yet, there are some things to be celebrated, which I am going to write about.

The flight was boring but the landing was soft, after which I had to jump on top of the heads of the passengers to escape the long queue at the passport control, only to get surprised shortly after. Ukraine met us with a completely new airport.  People met us with smiles. There were no long queues, as there used to be. No shouting, nor elbow pushing. There was no bureaucratic inefficiency, as there also used to be. I felt a warm welcoming and optimism from the people, which was very difficult for me not to notice. For the first time, I thought, it was no longer an ex-Soviet country, characterized by disrespect for time, inefficiency and long queues, meaningless declaration fulfilling at arrival. The airport system did change. So do people. And unfortunately the prices too. And the worries got washed away.

My stay in Ukraine was everything but extreme, even when speaking Russian. On the contrary, I noticed a significant change- people had become more caring, compassionate and polite despite the pain they are going through these days.

3 years ago, these features were in deficit. Actually, my first return back home in 2002 was a more extreme vacation for me. Having lived in Denmark, I used to meet strangers on street with smiles; I was acclimated to European tolerance; or simple soft behaviors from people. Yet, back then people in Ukraine appeared more offensive, tougher in their behavior- which was noticeable to me only after having lived in Denmark for some time.  So apparently - with all respect to my nation- a little rude and clumsy way of communicating in Ukraine was part of the culture- shared with Russian. Therefore, people could appear intolerant, offensive, wild and severe for no reason.

My irritation towards this graceless way of communication rolled enormously with each visit. While in Denmark, being a country characterized by less turmoil, people appeared more wealthy, stable and calm and therefore smiling and polite as a consequence. In Ukraine, in turn, having experienced the collapse of communism and the cracks in EVERY slice of society, people get used to instability and chronic uncertainty towards the future. Not to forget to mention that there is corruption on all levels; businesses are short-sighed, and spotting the arbitrage profit is the main goal of existence. Also for many, speculation became the source of their livings and, therefore, people had literally to use theirs elbows to get things done.  The concept of sustainability and patience was meaningless, because it even didn’t exist in Ukraine. Hours and minutes were measured by days and weeks; the word “yes” was replaced by “no”; the negative attitude prevailed the positive.

So, communism collapsed, and the new system was being built. The implication of a liberal market economy was not known to people, or the government. Thus, for example, the process of rebuilding the system was mainly accompanied with privatization- when the collective ownership was transferred into private ownership. And new governmental structures were formed, that took care of different registrations, controls, supervisions and permissions. From that period, the corruption gained in speed and became a part of the restructuring and rebuilding. Corruption had also spread the seeds of inefficiency, long waiting times and self-interest rather than public spiritedness, while navigating through the jungle of bureaucracy. Using your elbows, short-circuiting the system, be first on a line was the only way to get things done.

And the feeling of chronic stress is barely associated with smiles and politeness, isn’t it? Even knowing that, with my every visit, I got angry with people. There were a few times, when I felt the urge to correct, for example, doctors’ behavior and telling that they should not be rude to people, because they are supposed to set the example of graciousness and politeness. How naive I was. Sometimes I managed to trigger some reflection, but other times, I received aggressive remarks in return, pointing to the fact, that they have to be “persuaded” (with money), if you are to be exposed to politeness. So economic prosperity, and politeness go hand-in-hand. The harsher the economic condition- the less polite and smiling strangers you will meet.  

Like in prehistoric times, people (Ukrainians) banded together to fell the forest, till the soil, harvest the crops, and protect the same from invaders and marauders. So should they had been banding together to fight the corruption and instability. Like the collective effort of living and working together as well as helping the weaker was the fundamental driving force for “prosperity” during the communism, so should the same have prevailed later on, even in higher grade after the collapse of the system. Simple courtesy should have been the glue, which banded people in difficult economic times.

So, inefficiency and corruption of the public sector and its long waiting times resulted in frustration and self-interest. From my own subjective point of view, this was the main factors blocking courtesy.

To be honest, all these years I was horrified by this implicit aggressiveness in people.

Yet, this year was different.

As the political tensions worsened and the threat of split in Ukraine became real, people have in return gained common feelings for the nation. The need to solve everyday problems in cramped and uncertain conditions helped people to consolidate their forces with the goal of e.g., fight corruption; help the sick and injured ones; or simply express their meanings and support, like in a truly democratic country. On social media, for example, there were groups created with names, such as “National Debates”, “Student Coordinating Council” ,“Help the Victims of Kiev”, “Help the Victims of Maydan”, “Commission of Inquiry of human rights violations in Ukraine”, giving the opportunity for people to provide legal, finance or material help, as well as for others to get it for free.

I think Ukraine has never seen such a high level of people wanting to contribute to help to solve the political and economic tensions. For example, as of June 23 in the action "Support the Ukrainian army," the accounts of the Ministry of Defense received 133.795 million from businesses and individuals.

Also, to overcome the national pessimism, people also returned to national pride and national colors. For example, the motives from Ukrainian national dresses have gained extremely high popularity in fashion recently.

Ukraine has been in turmoil sinceNovember. But Ukrainians have never been seen so united, as now. And I have never until recently noticed that people did grasp the need to be united in today’s instability. And have never noticed people to be so polite, caring and open as they are now.

So why is national courtesy so important? First of all, I see courtesy like the glue that unites people. Secondly, I see politeness as a fundamental economic and behavioral characteristic, which should give rise to the national competitive forces, because the proper behavior is a source of new opportunities and willingness to cooperate, willingness to spend, improve and create. This is a new path for Ukraine.

And finally, I have one more reason to say, I love my country. I love Ukraine! And this is a wonderful country to visit!

Wednesday, 1 January 2014

Happy New Year!!!


Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! First of all, thank you all – especially to those nice people, who read my posts and a thank you in advance to those wonderful people, who are going to read them! And a very warm thank you to those, who rewarded me with a compliment, a comment, or constructive criticism, or a simple “like” on Facebook. And thank you to those, who showed support and understanding.

And now, I shall sum up!

One time my husband told me, it's better to be a pathetic blogger, than just be pathetic.

He should be ashamed of calling me a pathetic blogger!

But rather than feeling angry I felt quite honored, as he now calls me a BLOGGER! It’s always a pleasure to get a new stamp on your forehead.

So I kept on being a pathetic blogger for a little longer, rather than to be pathetic :)  (Apparently I am pathetic, if I am not blogging.) 

Thursday, 11 July 2013

How to Deal with the Emotional Crisis in a Calm and Cool Way?

If people were to choose a planet, where they prefer to live on, they will have two choices. The one planet will be orbiting around facts, details, systems, and laws – “real things”. The second one will be orbiting around abstract dimenions, feelings, and creative ideas- the “intangible things”. If the planets were to exist- there would be never ending devastating crises. Not because one planet is better, than another one, but because people from different planets will display and absorb the emotional response to situations differently. The name for the crisis would be The Emotional Crisis.

So how to deal with the crisis in a calm and cool way?

By Olena Denysyuk
The failure to understand the dimensions of feelings has its own price: loss of friends, husbands, good deals, goodwill – frankly speaking almost everything that involves human interaction. The consequent outcome of this failure might eventually further accelerate the misperception or misjudgment of human behavior/nature/incentives on the longer run. The effect is even worse, when we choose to stay hooked on being right (a topic for separate post) or see things from a limited/subjective standpoint  to the point that it actually turns into emotional stupidity – you would form your own delusional perception of reality.

In general, I think, feelings and emotions are a challenging subject to discuss, as it is more subjective, than anything. Sometimes ourselves and not only surrounding people fail to understand our emotional states. 
Our brain catches the “tangible and intangible information”, selects only the necessary information, process and analyses it, and consequently send signals to react. Due to different personalities, experiences, genes, brain anatomy, status quo, as well as social and family status, the same information will result in different outcomes at different times, as well as the same information will result different actions in different people. So there is no black or white, right or wrong, bad or good in people’s behavior- there are millions of dimensions on how our brain will catch, select, process and analyze this information. Besides, we are all different in our emotional intelligence and experiences; therefore we have different capacities to grasp the emotional side of the game. So her it comes: conflicts, stress, anxiety and emotional distress.



Wednesday, 15 May 2013

Hvem kan hjælpe mig med at sige RØDGRØD MED FLØDE uden at jeg brækker min tunge?

Min drøm er at blive økonomisk journalist…
Derfor knokler jeg med grammatik. Jeg brækker min tunge på nye ord. Jeg afprøver nye vendinger. Jeg præsterer, på vilkår med indfødte danskere. En tilstedeværelse, hvor jeg konstant er udenfor min sproglige tryghedszone. Men jeg knokler alligevel. Uden støtte og anerkendelse er det bare lidt sværere.

Af Olena Denysyuk

I 2005 var jeg på praktik med et markedsføringsprojekt på Radisson SAS Hotel i Kolding. Alt gik godt. Men da jeg spørger, om jeg kan få et sommerjob som receptionist, sagde HR manageren ”Vi vil ikke irritere vores gæster med din accent”…

Når jeg åbner min mund, ved jeg, at jeg desværre ikke er en del af ”flokken”. Så tænker jeg, at jeg SKAL skynde mig at bevise, at min accent ikke er et handikap. Bare fordi jeg har en accent, er den ikke en gyldig grund til, at min troværdighed skal falde. Eller grund til at vælge beskæftigelse, hvor sproglige kompetencer ikke er afgørende for ens succes.


Tuesday, 5 February 2013

When Your Strength Becomes Your Weakness (About Perfectionism)

 Last Sunday, I had an amazing journey across the planets, the solar system, and the galaxy, where I experienced the wildest weather conditions. At the planetarium I, my husband and my daughter watched an IMax movie, The Wildest Weather in the Solar System, produced by National Geographic. We had a spectacular journey through the solar system, witnessing the most powerful of the most powerful; “From a storm the size of a 100-megaton hydrogen bomb, to a 400-year-old hurricane, to a dust tempest that could engulf entire planets. Storms on the sun, liquid methane showers on Titan, and anticyclones whirling at hundreds of miles per hour on Jupiter”.

It was not only an educational and exploratory  journey, but also a breathtaking, beautiful, powerful and mysterious experience.
Even my 3-year old daughter was watching it SILENTLY and passionately through the entire movie. It was just astonishing.
But actually, it’s not the cutting-edge science facts as such that was so amazing to me; it’s more the attitude, the style of telling it, as well as the eye-popping visuals that made the movie so spectacular to me. It had the perfect proportions, the perfect length, the perfect telling voice, and the perfect video cuts- truly high standards! There was perfection in all, which made my experience so amazing.
 This perfection fascinated me… as it always does.
 Therefore, after the movie, I was having some reflections upon it.
It made me wonder whether being a perfectionist is a strong or weak quality of personal character.
Why does it matter at all?
If I am to claim that I wrote a perfect master thesis, I often point toward the fact that  I was very focused on details, and that I supported all my arguments with relevant and correct calculations. For somebody else, a perfect master thesis is about the spelling, layout, length or the writing style. It can be the method of working and the time of completion that should count. There is also the way of presenting and persuading, the relevance of a topic, or its originality- you name it. If I am to claim that my master thesis was perfect, I would actually mean that I was satisfied with my result, because I met the high standards, set by myself. But the outsider will just call me a narcissist and how I actually dare to “call myself perfect”?
I believe we all have a very limited understanding of perfectionism. From a negative point of view, it is being associated with narcissism, self-importance, and over-confidence.. From another hand, it is being associated with excellence, high results and achievements, as a driver for quality work, and thus- in positive context.
So, we will have different perception of perfectionism, which, in turn, can result in conflicts, misunderstandings, underestimation and/or wrong illusions about peoples, as well, and judgments and wrong conclusions.  Being a perfectionist can have severe consequences, such as low self esteem, depressions, obsessive and compulsive behavior. Eating disorders, can also be a symptom of perfectionism.

Sunday, 23 December 2012

My secret revealed...

It’s Christmas time. It’s time for miracles. Or not.
It should not be harmful for us to believe in miracles, at least for a day, or minute, or a second.
With all your good Christmas spirit, I would like to ask a second of your time to help me create a miracle.
In return I will share my secret with you: